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Nives, The White-Eyed
13 December 2005 @ 10:30 pm
I have no time to talk really, just putting this here to say that I've returned back to the dead and probably won't be posting for a while. I wanted to put this sooner, but had not a chance to do so. As I always say, I'll do my best to post whenever I get a chance. Ha... restrictions suck... Damn.
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: annoyedannoyed
Sounds In My Mind: SYSTEM OF A DOWN:Hypnotize/Mesmerize
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
06 December 2005 @ 10:17 pm
I don't know if it's just me, but it seems like the end of November was the ending of a lot of people's posting (for a while I'd guess). Kinda strange, but I've seen stranger. Anyhow, this December will kinda suck because one of my friends is moving somewhere else around the Winter Break time. Even though admittedly he acts kinda goofy very often, he was fun top be around and to talk to. If nothing else, I'm hoping he will at least call me so I can get his new number.

On another issue, my school is having a book fair and I spent way too much on books... like lets say $65. BUT THEY WERE REALLY GOOD BOOKS I JUST HAD TO GET, YOU KNOW?! Because I bought so many books I got a $5 gift certificate for the bookfair's books. I really wish I'd gotten it sooner because I think I bought all the books I wanted from there and there are like no other titles I would like. I guess I'll just have to find a way to buy some more books with the money that I'm supposed to be saving up for other people's Christmas. I think that by the time the bookfair is over, I'll be able to buy the family packs of gum (if even that).

I've started taking walks outside (not much of a walk if you're inside, eh?) at night time, like 12AM and later. It may seem crazy to some, but I really enjoy it. At night, it's calm and dark, there aren't cars and people out,it's very quiet and peaceful, it's cold (I love winter), and on clean night the starts illuminate the sky and ground. But the real reason I like to walk is because I'm searching for something, but sometimes I wonder if what I'm searching for still exists, or if it ever did exist. Even though it sounds crazy, each time I go, it feels like I'm getting closer to finding it and nothing can ever stop me.

In other news (there goes the news reporter thing again, but I like using this to start different topics), the real world sucks. It really does. It may sound childish, but I wish that this were more fantasy-like, like something you'd find in a book, you know? I know I'm not the only one who feels this way, because there are books, shows, movies, and video games that go beyond the real world into a fantasy world that people really enjoy. I just think this reality is too dull and... real. I mean, if nothing else, God could've at least left us with real magic, not this "is this your card" kinda magic, you know? I know that anyone who's read this has at least once in there lifetime dreamed that the realities of this world did not exist as they do. Damn... oh well. I guess I can still dream (if I can only figure out how to control them that is!).

I want to ramble on quite a bit more, but I don't want to type that much more in. So in short, not much has changed since my last post, and still no snake. Maybe I'll get one for Christmas, heh.

Oh, one more thing... Best Light Show In Town No Doubt
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: accomplishedaccomplished
Sounds In My Mind: lots of stuff
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
27 November 2005 @ 05:57 pm
After I don't know how long (don't fell like counting up the days) I'm finally able to update, but I don't know if I will be able to for a while after this. In any event, Thanksgiving was okay, but half of the family that usually shows up didn't, and it was quite small and somewhat boring. Nothing more to say about it. The entire week was better than it usually was though. I finally did something other than sit on my butt playing video games for the break (what a sad life I used to live). this current weekend was somewhat okay, but for the most part sucked; especially today considering I woke up at 4:30pm because i was out working with my father all night long and was freaking tired. I hate waking up late with a passion, yet It seems that no matter what, on non-school days, I'm always waking up past 12 o'clock.

In other news (this is starting to sound like a news report thing) I still haven't got a snake yet, but haven't given up on getting one. All it'll take is money, which I didn't have. But now that I'm going to be working with my father more often, I'll be able to get one soon. I'll have to buy it myself because I know no one in my family would be willing to get me one for Christmas (heh). Since we still don't have a scanner yet, I'm still open ears for any suggestions on a good brand. ... Nothing more to say that I can think of now, just the reminder for any friends that it may be a while before I can update again, but I'll update as much as possible regardless.
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: aggravatedaggravated
Sounds In My Mind: SYSTEM OF A DOWN: Hypnotize
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
15 November 2005 @ 08:12 pm
I knew it would happen, but I just didn't know when. I'm not allowed to use the computer except for today only or for homework. It has to do with school grades, so it may be a long time until I can post again, but I will seize every oppurtunity I get to update, so it's not like I'm just going to effortlessly give up until I'm allowed to use the computer again. I don't really have anything to say other than this for today, so I'm posting for anyone who reads this so they know.

There is one thing I would like to know though... I'm needing to buy me a scanner soon so I can start putting my art on the computer and on Live Journal. If anyone is reading this, please tell me which brand is a very good quality one and is somewhat cheap. Even if all you've heard is gossip, I would still like to know. Like I posted earlier, I have one but it is nearly impossible to get it to work on a computer, and I want to start using this as my art and general journal. Like I said, anything said will be appreciated.
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: frustratedfrustrated
Sounds In My Mind: SIM CITY 4
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
11 November 2005 @ 08:10 pm
A couple of days ago I finally started editing my Myspace. I've had an account for about 3 months, but never did anything with it ( I thought I forgot my screen name). If anyone wants to see it, it is at the top of my link's list.

Yes, today is Friday (woo-hoo!) and my sisters are coming over (woo-hoo..) and I have nothing planned for the weekend yet (...). I need more money so I can buy some good books and read them. But I have so many other things I want to get at the same time, it is more or less which thing I can get first that is close to the top of my list. Maybe I should save up for other people's Christmas gifts... like now. Most of my family deserves more gifts than I can pay off in two years, because I was always the closest to the family. But one thing I am not ready for are all the Christmas hymns and songs. AARRGG! I hate them all! Especially when my dad and sisters sing them when ever they get the chance! ...That is all... This one, out.
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: curiousI dunno
 
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
11 November 2005 @ 08:00 pm
Video Gamer
48% Parlour/Party Games, 50% RPGs, 69% Computer Games, 79% Console Games

You're into Video Games, huh? You don't really care what system their
running on, you just want your games, and you want them NOW! No waiting
around for other people to show up and get ready for you, oh no! You
can plug in and get straight to the gaming any time YOU'RE ready.



My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 17% on Parlour-Party
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 30% on RPGs
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 15% on Computer
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 51% on Console
Link: The What kind of Gamer are you? Test written by otakubilly on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
09 November 2005 @ 08:38 pm
I need more of my friends to join LiveJournal. If anything, most of them are all on Myspace. Oh well. After seeing my last 10 entries I've come to two conclusions: I'm being way too negative and I'm happy that I'm posting more often. I don't have much to say today, since I want to customize this journal some more, so I leave you with this thought:

Why should God give you another day if all your going to do is waste it? A scary thought to consider for the slacker Christians like myself.
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: blahblah
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
08 November 2005 @ 09:01 pm
I'm finally felling much better. All I have now is a bit of coughing due to irritation of the throat, but that's it (Thank God). I'm also thankful for the day off I got from school, I needed it. Even though I woke up at noon and didn't do much of anything, it was still... okay? I guess, I dunno. I don't feel like thinking too much right now, but I need to update my Livejournal. What makes this especially hard is the fact that most of the times I'm updating, I'm talking to one of my friends on AIM and have to switch up between this and them every few seconds. But it's better than having no one to talk to afterward!

I saw and heard about one of the most amazing things yesterday. My dad found this website that has these geniuses talking about free energy (yes, it does exist) and how the physics we are being taugh are all wrong and how with quantum physics and other things like that, we can create these engines and weapons that you would expect to see in Star Trek or something like that, and these people have enough fact that it's all legitimate stuff. It all seems too good to be true, But it isn't. I wonder how this all actually sounds to other people... oh well, no sense in worrying about it I guess. If they don't want to believe it, then there is nothing I can or will try to do.

Hope tomorrow doesn't suck to bad. Back to school we incompetent teenagers go! X-)
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: bouncybouncy
Sounds In My Mind: SIM CITY 4
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
03 November 2005 @ 09:24 pm
My throat is killing me! The day before yesterday I made the mistake of turning on the fan and letting it run through the night in my room. The result? I lost my voice and have to constantly clear my throat just to breathe. Other than that today sucked even more. We had to take the PLAN test, and it seems that the silence of the testing period was enough to make me hack so loud the classrooms across the hall probably heard me, and trying to suppress the coughing made it hard to breathe... *sigh* then my other classes, which (except for the last one) I hate with a passion.

In other news, I plan on getting me a corn snake soon (within a month at the most). I need someone I can talk to that can't talk back. I am also wanting to get a horse, but I don't see it happening before I go to collage. When I look at the online ads for horses, a good nomber of horses being sold are sold from people who are going to collage. I don't want to sell my horse just a year or two after I get him/her, which is one of the reasons I 'm getting a snake. Hopefully I won't have to sell the snake, but it won't be as bad as a horse if I have to. Agh... I don't know what to do about it all. I just all I should do is just leave it up to God.
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: soremore sore
Sounds In My Mind: GORILLAZ: Demon Days
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
01 November 2005 @ 06:58 pm
God... it has been way too long since I've updated. I've wanted to for at least three weeks, but never got the chance (half true). I've been playing a new mmorpg called Ultima Online (UO) and just can't stop playing... it's very addictive... But now I'm going to try more than ever to restrict the time I play and start updating at least every other day, possibly excluding weekends. I'm losing touch with something I really like and don't like the felling, hence my resolution to do this.

Also, just a few days ago I got the drawing tutorial written by neondragon and am aiming to be able to draw well enough to post them in my journal and maybe make it an art journal. Until then I'm practicing and searching for a scanner I can use to put the images on the computer. I have one, but the problem is that it happens to be one of the worst brands in the world and few have ever been able to actually get it working right on their computers. Well not much more to say now...
 
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
05 October 2005 @ 07:58 pm
It seems like I'm becoming nothing but a forgotten memory. All my greatest memories were with my friends, I finally realized today. I'm the kind that has no problem staying on the computer or playing a video game for hours and hours. But I also go bike riding for hours and will sometimes read for quite some time too. A revelation struck me as I stood on the top hill next to my old middle school. I have no memories from the time my friends started leaving till now. None. My two best friends are gone now and I can't even contact them, I don't think. My life is going to hell because all I've been doing are things that require only me. I've never even attended any sports event at my high school because I thought there was no reason. But now I can see that memories are formed only with the help of someone else. I can't do it alone.

As I stood on that hill, I think God gave me the inspiration to not become a forgotten memory. As I stood there, the light was fading and it was becomeing dark. suddenly the light around me starts glowing red. I look behind and see the clouds reflecting the sun in a way that lite the sky on fire with red, orange and purple. Then I glanced in front of me and saw two bright rainbows stretch from the ground all the way to the highest clouds, their bases hundreds of miles apart. In Georgia you never get to see anything like this, ever. With all the tress, all you can see are the clouds, but never the horizon. It was the most beautiful sight I've ever seen, and I know that God did it to show me that He cared for me, even though I didn't want to talk to Him right then.

If anyone is reading this, please don't wait until it's too late. Don't become someone's forgotten memory, as I've become. I may be 16, but I have the mind of an adult; when I look back at what I've done with my life, I can't remember most of it. I have so few memories to go back to. Don't be like me, please!
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: blankblank
Sounds In My Mind: Sim City 4
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
Only two words that can describe this movie... oh my God and OH MY GOD!!!! This is the best movie I've ever seen!

For those of you that don't know where I live... I live in the U.S.A. which should make what I'm saying impossible, because this movie comes to the United States in two years. But I'm one of the few that actually has the movie now. Even though it's all in Japanese, after 5 hours of searching, I've found a way to get English subtitles, so... yeah. For those of you who've seen the Matrix, the fight scenes are at the very least 10 times better, even though it's CGI animation. But the CGI is so good, you may end up surprized remembering that it is CGI.

For all you FF7 fans, yes... Cloud returns, along with Tifa, Barret, Aeris, Cid, Vincent, Red XIII, Yuffie, Cait Sith, Reno, Rude, Rufus, and even Sephiroth. If anyone wants to know more about it, then please comment!
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: giddygiddy
Sounds In My Mind: Final Fantasy: Advent Children
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
This is going to be one of the few times that I get to write in Live Journal... I think. I have been restricted from the computer on school days, but even then, I've got a lot of other things I'm finding to do you know?
For the first time in my life I've finally gotten into reading with my first book being Eragon. It's sad to say, but I thought it was so good that I went on a nine hour reading spree one day, and over six hours the other days. Now I'm reading it again to better understand the book and what exactly took place, you know? It's like watching a movie twice, confusing the first time then more comprehendable the second. I also got two other books not too long after Eragon; they are Eldest (you know it!) and Halo: The Fall Of Reach. I'm asking around to find other books that I would like, both online and around school.
The three books above are the kind of books that I like; if anyone reading this has any suggestions for other books that are at least similar to Eragon or Eldest (especially the dragon theme) then please tell me. Even though I did mention the lack of being on the computer I was facing, please feel free to comment as if I regularly post. Remember, I've got the weekend off, and would like to talk to you all again.
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: contentcontent
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
26 August 2005 @ 09:51 pm
Sigh  
It's becon\ming harder and harder to be able to even look at a computer. It's Friday, so that's the only reason I'm entering this in. Also, many of my friends and communities are not even posting anymore. I'd like to find out the people who list me as a friend, but I don't know how to. If anyone who's listed me as a friend reads this please tell me so I can add you to my friends list. And is there a way to see the people who list you as their friend, even if you haven't listed them?
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: gloomygloomy
Sounds In My Mind: HALO 2: Intro Screen on Xbox
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
25 August 2005 @ 07:21 pm
I'm finally back to livejournal. I've been so busy doing homework that I haven't had a chance to do anything. This math teacher that I has gives us busiwork for homework, and lots of it... the time-consuming problems... without teaching us how to do it either. She doesn't seem to understand that we actually have a life. Got some time today though!!! I win...
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: calmcalm
Sounds In My Mind: SYSTEM OF A DOWN
 
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
21 August 2005 @ 08:09 pm
This kind of sucks. Hardly anybody is posting anything in communities or their journals for the past week... I guess I need more friends and communities huh? Yeah I guess that would be the thing to do ............. Great, I'm so bored I'm answering myself, how pathetic... Anyways, I'm going to start making more friends and joining more communities.
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: boredbored
Sounds In My Mind: The deafening silence
 
 
Nives, The White-Eyed
19 August 2005 @ 08:41 pm
I've changed my account name from aerialdragon to this one, so I feel content right now because I got the account name I wanted.
 
 
Thoughts In My Head: contentcontent
Sounds In My Mind: computer fans